The beauty of having a readership of ZERO is that I can say whatever I want here and not really be concerned about the victims of my tongue lashing. You probably know who you are. Mind Bikers I am not your happy leader right now. I find myself in a series of conundrums too vast and deep to comprehend. I need to seek out the source of my discontent and obliterate it with a dizzying display of dazzling decisiveness. Alas, what if this creates undue carnage that I can't fix? I need things to change, I can't...scratch that I won't continue with the way things have been for the past many, many moons. But if MJ taught us nothing else...it's time I started with the [wo]man in the mirror. It is not right to ask someone to make major changes in their life if you are unwilling to make changes in your own. Perhaps the changes you need to make mean not participating in the co-dependency anymore. Dude...that would be a change!

There are other things you can't ask of people you know. Big things relating to such serious and ominous topics as religion and sex and back waxing. The key though is having common ground to start on, or at least be able to go back to. If you don't have any of that anymore where does that leave you? How can this be happening on two fronts at the same time?

I want to stand my ground this time and not let it just pass like it always has before. You don't get to do these things and get a free pass every time. DONE, FINIT! Childhood over...let's jump right past adolescense to ADULTHOOD! WHOA! There's no stopping her now folks, she is actually laying claim to that oh so scary of idea of being an adult and expecting the same out of the people around her. Has she lost her mind...nope she is just in the achy breaky heart part of getting an eye opening new perspective on an old problem.

The bike pack has split off into two camps for the time being.